lately, I've not been able to make a final decision to move, or not, from Los Angeles. secretly.. deep down..I knew part of my urge to leave has to do with my current living situation. i live with my X..a constant reminder of yet another failed relationship. but that living situation is changing. I found the courage to put my feelings first (big step for me..thank you: Rachel, Sara, Brian) and asked my X to move out. he agreed, and even went to say he knew it wasn't healthy either.
I'm scared of being lonely and relieved that we both can move on. I just need to be sure I'm not running away from a situation because I didn't want to hurt the other person feelings. sad but true.
a little ditty about my X: he didn't do anything wrong (like cheat)- he's so far the most trustworthy guy I've ever dated. we just didn't have chemistry. we were constantly off.
....anyway, when "X" is mentioned folks usually assume the worst about the other person...this isn't the case.
a huge part of me misses my family more and more and the other part says what about you? my Dad says moving will help take the focus off of me, however, until these past couple of years I don't think that I've ever really been clearly focused on me. I understand what he means. I have plenty of time, and I'll make another right decision.
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