I was standing in line to get my lunch at the grocery store and caught myself staring at a package of pampers newborn "sensitive" diapers. The picture on the front showed a content new mother gently holding her newborn to her chest while it was sleeping. I quickly related to how it felt to hold a new born baby that way...as I've held my nephew, Eli, exactly like that. All of the sudden an overwhelming sensation took over my body, I started to cry....I needed a baby. I've had this sensational feeling happen before, it's strange, animal like. Most of the time I feel indifferent to procreating. I quickly tried to put myself in check..."are you ok, lady?" asked the grocery clerk....yeah.. yes! I'm fine, I embarrassingly replied, got something in my eye. I start thinking.... I have no boyfriend/husband...not even a hint at one....I wonder if the kid thing will happen for me someday....my job sucks..school will be never ending...I checked out and the feeling had gone.
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Just one of the many realities I can't ever understand. But I hear you, and I'm sorry you're going through the pain. I can wax philosophic about chemical needs versus higher brain rationalization, but I think I'll shut up instead.
Love, Dad
well it's not painful, just strange feeling the "urge"...
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