it's not so bad.....

I've been doing a little re-decorating in my apartment and life. Over the weekend I went out all by myself to a friends movie premier and then to a little party afterwards, where I was quite surprised that folks even remembered who I am (I don't go out out much anymore)....I was SO nervous getting out there all by my lonesome, and I was scared no one would talk to me, you have to know I work these scenarios up in my head that are just awful- I just have to shut out the voices in my head~ it's them not me. anywho...After I got there I was glad I went, and thought to myself how "see it's not so bad going alone" I don't have to worry about driving anyone around, leaving when they want to leave..etc, you know, or maybe you don't. And it was refreshing that folks remember you and don't give you the up and down stink eye and ignore you all night. What I enjoyed the most was looking around the room and seeing how life has changed everyone...but more importantly recognizing how much it's changed me.